09/03/2004: "Pain"

music: Bic rungen
mood: Sad

In trying to keep my mind of the sad things that go on in the world and in life, near and far, I tend to encourage my mind to wander. One of the things that fascinates and confuses me is pain. Not in a sick sadistic way, but what pain is exactly and why thresholds are different. Today specifically I think again on emotional pain and what really it is, and how does it really hurt. What part of your body actually hurts when you are in emotional pain. Why is it easier for some people to block out physical pain (assumedly mind over matter) but not be able to use the same mind to block emotional pain. And why does emotional pain take longer to heal than physical pain. And how are they linked. We know the negative side effects of mental stress can have very physical effects. Or is all pain psychosematic, and is psychosematic pain any less real just becuase it doesn't have a physical nerve persae.

Crying intrigues me to. I hate doing it, I rarely feel better afterward and I don't belive its a training either. I was never taught that crying was a weakness, but I guess I never thought it was a neccessity either. Why do you do it? What triggers what to make that a response. Is it just a clensing metaphor that your brain thinks is ironic? Is it a critical mass of hormones being washed out. I wonder what the hormone or estorgen content in tears is. That made me think just now...I must be brilliant, consider the source but still

And finally, what is so cathartic about writing? I find that writing whether it is the physical act or the organization of thoughts or the trance type meditation writing requires, I find that it is calming and eases some of the inner turmoil more than most any other natural outlet one goes to when hurting.

A quanrdy indeed. being careful not to try to dwell no looking for impossible answers so much....

Have a good weekend all...